Life in the low

Things are so slow when you want them to be fast.  Time flies so fast when you want it to take it slow.  Human can never be satisfied with what they have and when they got it they’ll be craving for more.  I got too busy this summer that now I felt I was burn out with too many activities I’ve been trying to do.  It felt like I have consumed all of my energy yet I have not accomplished a single thing.  This is frustrating. I told to one of my closest friend and he asked when was my the last time I relaxed.  I told him that was just last march then he said I should do what makes me happy.  Now that made me think.  What is it that makes me happy now?  A few weeks ago, a bite of kitkat makes me happy.  The latest episode of GOT makes me excited and those small moments I see the face of my inspiration makes me giddy.  Now I feel numb.  I do not know what to feel anymore.  I’m almost sleepy at work and I sleep late at home because sleep is like avoiding me lately when I’m at home.  Is this an early symptoms of being 30?  I have been waiting for that moment and now it getting a toll on my shoulder?  Gosh how should I resolve this issue? I wanted to climb mountains but that needs financial budget damn! Which we all know is not my best, how did I become like this?  I’m starting to hate what I become and I’m longing for what I was then.  Will it still be possible that I could go back or what I become was just the result of what I was then?  What ever is this I’m hoping it won’t take long and I’ll be up on my feet again and be the jolly me or the bitchy me what ever I was as long as I have life.